Shadows behind my everyday life..

one again here we are,
the only difference is the mark.
the one you left upon her eye,
and the one i must bury deep inside.
another secret to never be revealed,
how much more can i conceal.
Pretending that everything's alright
is not my type of dealing with my life.

My mind is racing,
i cant escape it.
who am i anymore?
Its unknown,
for i have shown.
On the run,
from the reality
i hate to believe.
i want to leave,
so i can breathe.
and figure out,
what im supposed to be.
I'm tired of chasing a dream
that wasn't meant to be.
and that dream,
was being me.

Here i am
left in this place again
the place of darkness
lost in the moment
when you walked away
how do i move on
when its not what i want
it wasnt from the start.
Ill always miss your face
but this distance is a disgrace

I want to forget you
if its the last thing i do
i want to walk past you
as if it was you i never knew
I want to think back
and no longer feel the past
I want to laugh
with you not in disguise
I want to realize
that i am better off
without you by my side